If Not Now, When?

Since it was nice out yesterday I decided that I should get my Christmas lights put up and finally rake up the leaves in my yard. Turns out, I hate raking leaves as much as I did when I was little. I learned on Black Friday that if you have to do something that’s not enjoyable drinking can help spice it up. I don’t drink as much as I use to last year (even then I didn’t drink much). With my tolerance low it didn’t take more than a few shots to get drunk. After raking the leaves I laid on my driveway talking to my mom. We chatted about how I will be in the upcoming months. I reassure her as I constantly do that I know I will have my highs and lows but I’ll let her know if things get bad and I need a change. When I get cold I go and sit in my car with a blanket so that’s what I ended up doing. Heat on high, snuggled up in a blanket with my feet on the dashboard (note: I did not do any driving the car was never taken out of park. I sat in my driveway). As I continued thinking I realized that I haven’t done much with my life.

Over the last nine months I have been getting this weird feeling in my stomach. It’s like theres a fire waiting to be lit. Last night I realized finally what it was. I have so many things that I want to do with my life. For years I’ve been telling myself that I will do all the things I want to but I’ve never gotten around to it. So if not now, when? Starting now I’m going to start doing the things I want to and love.

Things to do that will light the ‘fire’ (bucket list I guess)

  • Rock n’ Roll Hall of Fame
  • Watch the sun rise on the east side of the state
    • Watch the sunset on the west side the same day.
  • Spend a month in Sweden.
  • Take a music theory class
  • Learn to ski
  • Listen to alone while doing the things they mention in it
  • Visit a sunflower field
  • Road trip across the country
  • See the Northern Lights
  • Take bar tending class
  • Re-learn to play Poker
  • Sail a boat
  • Go camping somewhere with a great view
  • Fish on the ocean & great lakes
  • Attend a murder mystery dinner
  • Dress up and go bowling (never did this in high school for homecomings so)
  • Go to a silent disco

I’ll continue to add to this over time.


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